18 Sep We Will Forget

Why do you have to be in front of me,why do I have to be always watching you… Why do I have to always see from afar yet still feel like you’re a dream? Why do I get to be the one watching, seeing, and you hiding, though glimmer… Why does it have to be me, staring from afar, watching you grow, watching you go far? Why? Why? Why?…

Is this the little deaths I have to endure, is this the little deaths I have to bare, to bare myself remember, and watch you forget… Our story’s yet to end but our memories together seem like yesterday… I don’t see it but I feel it. I feel like it hasn’t ended. Only God knows when only He knows what could happen and where all these will go… That perhaps one day, one day we will forget or one day we will remember and look back, how this little death we bared and endured came to glorify God and pleased us as we see our lives unfold exactly as God intended it to be. Maybe one day, we’ll see, maybe one day we won’t. Maybe someday we’ll know, maybe someday we won’t. Maybe, just maybe these little deaths will be more, or maybe it won’t be long until He reveals the real reason why. Why. Why. Until then… I have to wait, watch you live, watch you grow, watch you from afar, and watch you go…

“Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him.”

“For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.”

– 2 Corinthians 4:17-18